CYC Blog - Help: I guess I dont feel god's presence anymore
Posted by: Josh Fairbanks
on Jun 17, 2009
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Here is the second help email we got at the Christian Youth Crew myspace and the corresponding reply we published in our blog. Email is in bold and reply is what follows. Would like to get any input you guys can offer. I've been bouncing these emails off James and getting his thoughts and molding it all together with what gets spoken to me. So any comments are more than happily accepted and desires.
This one was deeper for me than the first one. She hit on some very personal topics. I realized what kind of emails I would be getting when I started this whole thing but you never really feel the gravity of them until you read one like this. When I read this I really felt the weight of the responsibility on me to make sure I became a vessel for the right message.
well, you got me interested. I thank you for having this. i have grown close to God in the last 6 years. That was when I frist started going to the first church that had live music, actually taught me something, had people who cared, and had a Pastor who was like a father to me. But now, I dont have flame anymore. I love God with all my heart. he has done so much for me. I still read my Bible, pray everyday, and live my life for God, but I guess I dont feel god's presence anymore. Also, at home, im having problems with my stepdad. he has always been in around, but never in my life. He neglected me as a child. And now we are fighting mroe and more. I dont want to anymore. He says stupid comments. He recently gave his life to Christ, but I just dont trust him. My mom chooses his side all the time. Like evrything is my fault. We are a Christian family. But, i feel like everyone is turning against. Like they gave up on me. which i dont blame them, because, i do have attitude. its actullay a big problem. i have been trying to fix it, but its hard when people just constantly say stupid things to get to you. What do I do. Thanks for listening.
It's my belief that as Christians we are at a constant state of growth. At no point do I feel we can reach a point where we've done enough for God. Too many Christians feel that it's simply about praying, going to church, reading the Bible and living "as a good Christian should." But the fact is we all have a purpose and it's much more than living "as a good Christian should."
Romans 8:28
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.
Christians can easily become idle. They let contentment take over their lives and they feel their doing enough. But we must all drive to reach our purpose and to succeed in such. Being a young Christian can be so tough because you have so many things in your life pulling you, shaping you and forming who you are as a person. So many Christians get lost from their path in their teens and have such a hard time finding their way back to God again later in life. I think you may be to a point where you can ask yourself and God "What is MY purpose?" "Why has God put ME here?"
I believe you can find a new found drive in your spirit in the journey to find your purpose.
When it comes to your home life let me hit you with a few verses and go from there.
James 3: 16-18
16For where envying and strife is, there is confusion and every evil work. 17But the wisdom that is from above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle, and easy to be intreated, full of mercy and good fruits, without partiality, and without hypocrisy. 18And the fruit of righteousness is sown in peace of them that make peace.
Your description of your stepfather isn't to positive is it? You start right off by talking about how he wasn't in your life and that he neglected you. To me this says so much about the feelings you harbor against him. You tell us he gave his life to Christ but you don't trust him. As a Christian we should rejoice when someone else even takes the smallest steps towards Christ. And then we should do our absolute best to help that relationship between that person and God grow and grow as much as it possibly can. That's our duty as Christians. To help gather up those lost sheep.
When it comes to your "attitude", guess what? The way teenagers thinks differs from the way adults tend to think and we like to call that having an attitude. Not being able to handle when people hit you with sharp little verbal jabs, to me, isn't about having an attitude. It's about being able to put on that holy armor and realize that there are no words uttered by man that can bring you down. Regardless of who they come from. I would stop focusing on having a bad attitude. That's like telling someone to not think of pink elephants. What do you think of? I bet you just pictured a big pink elephant. So focus on the positive. Focus on having a GREAT attitude. Focus on the positive, up lifting things that you can say to someone. Same thing with your stepdad. Focus on the little positive things he may do around the house, whatever they may be. Mowing the lawn, putting money into the house, changing a light bulb, no matter how small as long as it's positive. Focus on the positive changes you can see in his life now that he's accepted Christ.
James tells us that strife will lead to confusion and every evil work. I would defiantly say what you're experiencing at home is strife. Is there a possibility this has led to your distance from feeling your holy fire? What about that the strife that is there is just festering and leading to more and more negative things in your home life? Refuse it and rebuke it. Kick strife in all aspects of your life to the curb. Remember, we're told by the Word that OUR WORDS have power. So use your words and get rid of the things that are bring you down. Focus on all the positives in all aspects of life. From there, you're watering the holy seeds around you. With God and your fellow Christians, those seeds will continue to grow and you'll be amazing just how big they get.
